Mmmm.

I'm a big believer in beautiful people, but these people are gorgeous. Complete with perfect tans & all. Yum.

Bring about the clouds ohh sky

Ive learned a few things ; people are so easily shaken these days, or maybe always ! Either way, people arent getting any happier, I heard about two 11yr old boys commiting suicide in the same month ! They were 11 ! I can barely handle myself somedays & Im 15 ! Myyy gosh what the world is coming to, an 11yr old shouldnt have to worry about serious things, let alone even consider suicide, but our society let's it. Theres nothing we can do about that ofcourse.

But I wanna be able to deal ! To stand up to all the shitty little things & say 'Yeah, Ive been sad for 2mins but thats bout it youuu biatch, you can leave !'
Its not easy, but we can look at the prettier side of life ( :
When Im sad I sleep, I wake up & half the time it doesnt seem to matter at all anymore ! Other times I just look out into the sky, myy gosh sunsets are beautiful & I know thats such a stereotype but I am shocked by that kind of beauty everyday, coz its never tha same.

I say, find refuge in the small things - babies, flowers, clothes, art, clouds .. only then will you realise the time youre wasting on the bullshit ( :

Word.

Ummmm - Yeah Zack's dad doesnt like me or infact the 'idea' of me (but then again none of my guy's dads has soo .. )
& I just realised Im fat soo .. COOL !
But I bought pretty things today so it doesnt matter !

I love you all though, to an extent ( :

Mumumumumumumumumum

HAAAAAPPPPPPYYYYY MOOOTTHEERS DDDAAAAAY MUUUUMMM !



Heeeey mummy ; I cant even explain how much I love you - put into words the love I have for you I cannot. But I will say THANK YOU ;

Thank you for loving me, even when Im a complete bitch to you.
For taking care of me, & caring that much more even when you never have to.
For worrying when no one else did.
For making my bed, coz Im always way too lazy to.
For making me cheesecake that Im pretty sure will change the world some day.
For standing up for me when I never had the guts to.
For teaching me to appreciatee everything I get & to cherish love, work, food, sex, my body, my friends & family ; all the good things in life.
For loving me when it seemed I never loved you ;
FOR BEING THE BEST MUM EVER .

Thank you mum.

<333333

loooo<3ooooove

I MISS LINA
I MISS JASMINE
I MISS RANA
I MISS ZAAACCCCK
I MISS MAEGAN
I MISS TYLER
I MISS CHARISSA !
I MISS FRANNY

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Weeeeeeoooww

Currently reporting form a crappy 7Eleven thingo doewn the street from our apartments in Waterloo, Oz ;

I MISS YA'LL ! & know I just got here but like a little sucker I already miss you beautiful people ( : Ya'll know I hate white people, I mean dont get me wrong youre all so nice (ahahhaha) but I just dont like the way God created you ! LOL
I mean it, when it comes to guys ; I mean I need a real man, you know with muscles & such ; sorry. Ima sucker for a guy who will stand up for me (Zack Im talkin bout you, so you owe me kisses when I get back) Muahahahaha.

Well, as you know I dont have a trusty laptop & the guy here is giving me weird looks so there isnt really a chance I'll get to upload the great pics I take here - there was a guy in the mall holding up a sign that read 'Free Hugs' - I wouldve gone up & hugged him ! But what if he had swine flu ?!?!? & he just had a plan to kill us all !? OK mayybe Im being a little dramatic but its only coz I miss the dum .. no-so-clever people in my country : (

HELLLLP !Lol, it actually isnt really that bad I just wanna sound like a baby. I get to shop ! So this trip hold SOOO much goodness ( : DURRRH.


I miss you Rana&Jasmino you crazy chicks ! & I miss you Zack sweety. I


PS. Omg maybe I am phsyco, I just got here this morn & Im already stressing this much Well heres to hoping ya'll have a stress-free drunken, fun holiday.

PEACE lovelies ( :

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Yes this is my sad face ; kinda gross I know. But I just found out that we leave not just a day earlier but another 6hrs earlier than that ! & I cant spend the day with my beautiful girls Rana & Jasmine which ofcourse kills me : ( Theyre pretty much my life those girls & deprivation of one whoooole day with them sucks (balls) :S

AND ! I cant see Z coz he has school & doesnt get off unitl 3ish & I'll be LONNG gone by then.

Heres me saying

GOODBYYYYE & I'LL MISS YOU ALL.

Byyee baby (you always smell soo good) & my girls ( :

LOVE EACHOTHER ! Hahahahaha.

GoTiaGoTiaGoTia

I dont usually do this, no, scratch that. I have NEVER done this. Publicly announced my relationship status in this way, ever. I feel good though, & I know its late & Ive got training in the morn but my phone is dead & I dont have a charger soo the alarm issue is pretty hazy :S
ANYWAY, I do feel good coz I do like this guy & I know for a fact he feels the same if not more, no more ! Which I couldnt have said 2weeks ago, 4months ago etc etc. So I like this feeling coz its pretty abnormal in a sense for me : ) YAY.


So I have a new guy ;

His name is Zack. Hes one of the few guys who I can actually say has abit more common sense than the average person, although I doubt he uses it on a daily basis. I met him. Saw him act like an idiot ( loved it ) didnt think much of it. Met him again & found that maybe there was abit more to him. We talked & I spilled to him the 'no-bullshit' thing my life revolves round coz I HATE the 'playing hard to get' - 'avoiding' blah blah blah thing, so you get my point ! & so he just asks me out & I say yes ofcourse & thats how it all started. I will admit it was recent but never the less I like this guy & want to tell everyone, coz I am actually proud to have him & proud to say Ive moved on from all the bullshit that went down a while back (it was bad, on my part anyway) I lost alot of myself just doing what I was supposed to. Sadness but whatever, Im ALL about moving on.

BUT it does suck that we just got together & I leave in a days time & go for just around 12days, which I know might not seem like alot but when youve just met someone who you like & might possibly turn things around, you inevitably WANT to spend time with him nooh ? Well I dont have that privilege but HE IS NOT on holiday like the rest of us in public schools who got just got off & wanna partaaaaaay till we drop dead (we are SERIOUSLY that stressed) so he can occupy himself & not miss me enough to have random sex with random people ; OHH goodie ! LOL

Well thats my piece & I feel good telling the world I like someone. Gosh this feels good.


Youre a greatguy Z <3





*Ohhyeah, he has THE MOST amazing smile Ive ever seen :O

I know he doesnt like this pic but I LOVE IT, he looks SO lost. I'll save youuu ! LOL

GayTrip

I leave my gay island soon & I could say Im excited about the shopping (planning to break the bank, even if I am just shopping for basics - MASS AMOUNTS) but I will miss the little things ; 

Mariko park & all our little gay drinking adventures, my boy at skynet(actually not really but I thought Id mention them), the heat - my tan WILL fade & it was just starting to look good PS. 

How its soo easy to get our cheapline booze here as the lovely people here dont give a shite how old we are or what we do ( : Paddling with the girls in the morn, the heat(I know this is the second time but I really am soo not looking forward to freezing my ass off :S)

Im too tired to go on, gota pack ( :

Love ya'll - not really.

 

Stupid

For all those who know me, lastnight was probs one of the funnier nights Ive had in a while let me tell you.
I got to the bash late which was fine coz it only started to fill up at like 9, but there were more people than we expected, ohh gooody ; nooo not really :S COZ twas good coz we didnt run outa alco like the gang at the MaristBash (LOL) & the music was fine as well & the people werent too bad but then at like 11 A (not 2 or anything) came & told us to clear out (kinda expected it as the under-age drinking was to capacity) so we all left, I left the guy I asked to be my company with an asshole who totally doesnt even value what I do(which was to take care of him) I cant say Id wanna blame it on the alco coz I didnt even drink enough to get half drunk so twas just plain old TIA's stupidity ; yay right?!? Goooossssssh !
So I ended the night TRYING to look out for him (I hate the role reversal shite man, coz Im pretty sure it goes - GUY LOOKS AFTER GIRL ; doesnt fckin matter if hes drunk!) & hes sort of a slut too, even better TIA ! Wow, I amaze myself with these decisions.
Feel like smashing my head in (but that would ruin my hair ; LOL)

My advice (which you should only take after alot of consideration) would be to think about what you do when you do stupid things with even dummer people(AKA the drunk guuuy)
Peace out & happy holidays lovelies <333

PS. Im not usually this mean, Im just ticked off abit & BTW - THANKS FOR THE GREAT DAY TODAY BABIES.
I have THE sexiest bestfriends ; i hope youre jealous ( :