I hate this ; I love this.

Ohkaaaay, you know that phase you get to at a certain period in your life where you have NO idea what to do, where to go, what to be ? Yeah I hit it a few days ago & if Im thinking straight (which I have no idea about BTW) I STILL AM at that point, just a little bit better (or so I hope).

Now Im not about spilling my feelings all over the bloody internet sooo excuse my weary way of putting this out :S


The feeling was neutral, but not 'just neutral' ... SO neutral your brain ends up shutting down altogether & you realise youre staring down at the floor for an hour. Where the biggest things seem to not matter at all, like going home. Your friends become your anchors, your pillows your best buds & food like it was nothing. Its such a drug, not to able to think ; to go completely blank & realise youre just thinking about yourself thinking about yourself thinking about yourself (think about that & I swear it'll make sense, although it took me 5mins to put it into words).

I think, no, I KNOW Im at the stage where I have those moments. My friends call it depression ; naaaaaah - I JUST HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT TO DO !

But love anyway, yeah okay bye sweeties. What great listeners you all are. (No, im not high ( :)

DRUGS ? or just charm ?

I do get worried about the people around me sometimes. Lets just say their behaviour is rendered normal if you happen to close your eyes ! But otherwise theyre either, fustrated, dont know how to dispay themselves or are just plain stupid ; either way, I GET WORRIED ! LOL

Some examples at WaiTui, where there seemed to be alota stupid things goin on :S

I didnt expect anything else really

Yeah, coz thats how you get the ladies :S

Extra points for makng it a possible sex postion ( :

Yeah no, I always knew.

John ?

Ohkay Joshy, we now you think youre superman. But superman never looked like someone who needed hard drugs k ( :

Flabby Thighs

* Its been a while since I last posted anything coz exmas & well just stress in general : teachers, work, parents, boys, stuff ! MOORE stuff *sighhhh.
Anyway, bout 2weeks ago ? Yeah i think 2weeks we paddled WaiTui & I had a goodtime being the paparazzi (everyone got annoyed, except for the ones that really loved themselves ofcourse)
There were alota happenings I must say, little bitchy things & injured people & what not but I liked the whole 'Lets get fucked' thing with everyone. I dont have pics from the nights we had (which were eventful) although I wish I did ( :
Heres us, lazy as hell but happy for no reason -

I wasnt feelin very good about my flabby thighs :S

I quite like this one, his pants started to come off ( :

Whata beautiful chick, she doesnt even know it too, crazy girl.